Camellias have always reminded me of my childhood. More specifically, they remind me of my mom and her love for gardening. This beautiful flower reminds me of memories of her that hold a special place in my heart and mind. Memories and reflections are what my last two months have been about.
These last two months have been months of reflection. I’ll be turning 65 next month and with it has come many changes. One of which is a decrease in my health care costs. Yippee!! Yet, with my age comes the idea that I my life here on earth is not infinite. Don’t get me wrong, I did know this already. But now I see there is an end to these lives my husband and I are living here with family and friends. This brings about a sadness to me for those who will, at some point, be left behin
I’ll be turning 65 next month and with it has come many changes. One of which is a decrease in my health care costs. Yippee!! Along, with my age comes the idea that my life here on earth is not infinite. Don’t get me wrong, I did know this already. But now I see there is an end to these lives my husband and I are living here with family and friends. This brings about a sadness to me for those who will, at some point, be left behind…
Yet, this also brings a sense of urgency to me. I hear the words of the Apostle Paul echo in my heart and mind. “For to me, living means living for Christ and dying is even better. (Because I’ll be with the Lord in Heaven with no more tears and no more sorrow.) But if I live I can do more fruitful work for Christ. So I really don’t know which is better” For me the answer is simple, right now at this moment I want to live for Christ. The work God has laid out for me right now, right here is urgent.
These last few months I’ve been meditating on God’s Word and reflecting to Him. “Where can You best use me? God, what are You calling me to do in this new chapter of life?” Did I receive written answers in the sky? Did I see an apparition? NOPE, (‘cuz those don’t happen.) But what I did receive was peace and direction that have surpassed my understanding.
I now know that I am to spend time enjoying the sounds of my husband as he snores in the middle of the night. We are to cry and grieve together as we lose family and friends. We are to laugh as we watch our grandson slide down a piece of cardboard on his make believe slide.
Soaking in the grandchildren time, is another thing this side of life has shown me. Having “light dances” with my grandsons. Sitting down with my granddaughter to dress a Barbie doll. Teaching her how to play the piano. Reading books to each of them in the late afternoon and sharing the love of Jesus, as I model how He loved others.
Another thing God has revealed to me, is to be less selfish and critical. Simple things, like giving up my drive-thru latte to gift that money to the homeless shelter or a friend in need. Foregoing my afternoon of binging on Hallmark movies to make bath salts for good friends. These are the things God is calling me to do.
God granted me the joy of learning. In this joy of learning is a yearning to teach others. Each week I gift back my love and knowledge of God’s Word to a group of ladies in a small group study. (They honestly teach me more than I give them.)
This blog and social media, allow me to share my zeal of keeping our bodies and minds fit.
What God has shown me, is this side of life. Retirement is not withdrawal from a job, but it is finding a new profession that is even richer than the first.
What are you reflecting on? What is God calling you to change in your life? I really do want to hear from you 🌺 Deb
This blog post is dedicated to my husband, who supports me in every good endeavor. My grandchildren who bring giggles into my life. April Liewer who showed me passion and education go together. And to the ladies who dedicate themselves to the Lord and each other every Monday evening.